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  1. IlGum

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    Can you possibly fathom how it feels
    To live without the unparalleled thing
    That you really, truly, genuinely want,
    That makes your heart throb and sing?

    I know you presumptively haven't,
    Or you'd beyond doubt be just like me;
    Closemouthed from the inside out,
    Yearning, thriving, wanting just to see

    That one person I really, truly, undoubtedly want,
    The only one to end my endless, bliss less drought.
    Passing over to me a illimitable sliver of happiness,
    And then, on spur of moment, I'm free of all doubt.

    At that very occasion, I think it's all gratifying
    When I'm floating buoyantly on thin air-
    Then I'm plummeting groundward
    When I realize they're no longer there.

    Do you realize how that feels?
    To be a carapace, abandoned, and hollow,
    Knowing nothing but to brace yourself
    For the inevitable pain that soon follows.

    Living without the sole thing on this great Earth
    Heaven or Hell, that makes you whole and completes you
    Is not a desirable life, believe me when I say,
    The Emptiness is not something you wish to live through.

    The forsaken, deceiving semblance slowly furnishes me
    With outlandish animosity, hunger, and a strong desire
    When my only prize in life, what I live for, is gone,
    To burn everyone and everything with resentment as my fire.

    Great Earth, Sky above, divine Heaven, and the depths of Hell
    Bellow for me at once, each in attempt to gain me with lure.
    I lament, I scream, I fall to my knees, and ruefully for my suffering,
    For this terrible affliction, there is no cure.
     
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    I know I'm so sorry busy busy me! No beach today, long walk to find Pokemon and then watched a few race cars then went to the park! I will be in game soon I promise buddy x
     
  3. IlGum

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    It's ok. Just hook up if you have time. Been busy too doin my mixes and rehearsals plus office.
     
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    My vacant stare was sure to be
    a giveaway to anyone that saw . . .
    I was a Pilgrim there to the land of techno-jargon,
    of icons, Help instructions meaning nothing,
    and a world of young and savvy operators.
    Our teacher wasn’t there.
    Certain that the worksheet explaining all the basics
    would be a breeze for us to carry out,
    he’d arrogantly left the room
    and left the lot of us to the mercy of
    a keyboard and computer.

    I looked up from his worksheet
    to a screen that stared right back at me,
    awaiting my commands.
    I was on the starting path to what is often called
    the Super Highway,
    and my boarding pass, tuition to the class,
    was non-refundable.
    Overwhelmed, I started out. Then I hit a rut
    and didn’t have a clue what next to do.
    My learning peers already seemed to know
    the route quite well.
    Some, in fact, were calling it a day
    while I stayed on, ashamed to bother
    any of the others there for help.

    I looked around the room, my tired brain
    a hot plate in the midst of younger minds
    with the speed of ovens made for microwave.
    Perhaps they’d all conspired to put
    the older lady at unease.
    It seemed the more I tried to understand,
    the more pathetically off course I’d go. . .
    Till finally (longing for a time when
    “cut and paste” implied the use of scissors),
    I got up from my seat and left behind
    the self-instructing worksheet which
    that egghead teacher said would be “a cinch.”
    Two big words were scrawled across the top
    of its first page, two big words in red,
    written with the one tool I could trust:
    SCREW IT.
     
  5. IlGum

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    For months I’ve partitioned – sectored my strife
    Trying to determine – wrong from the right
    Clinging to bits – healing the bytes
    Moving and changing – formatting new life

    My career crashed – with it my dreams
    Memory erased – circuits burned clean
    Connection to love – garbled and crossed
    Power was fading – all color lost

    A new system needed – more power and thrill
    New creativity – speed and the skill
    Designing new backup – restoring my line
    Application of will – turn tables on time

    Tap my known current – discarding old woes
    Erase obsolete system – vanquish all foes
    Move to the center – empower self trust
    Stun all the comers – lightning fast thrust

    No longer lie down – and wait for the call
    Stand up and fight – pin them to the wall
    Knowing I’m better – than any machine
    Time to arise – from a protracted dream

    And so I forgo – all advice of claimed best
    Listen inside – put myself to the test
    It’s hard but I’m winning – getting better by day
    Pain is less troubling – I’ll continue this way
     
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    Spicy Garlic Pork Ramen

    Here is uniquely garnished with shredded red pepper for additional spice and an umami-heavy scoop of "chicken gravy" that combines cooked ground chicken, chopped shiitake mushroom, and chopped ginger into something like chicken butter. I definitely noticed the garlic in the roasted garlic cloves that come as another garnish, which certainly don't hold back the garlic punch. Other very artfully presented garnishes include stringy kikurage mushrooms, fresh green chives, two pieces of tender roasted pork, and a tiny quail egg. Many diners like to add corn atop the ramen, though I found it dominated almost every bite.
     
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    When all we hear are the empty promises and lies,
    That leave behind broken hearts and shattered lives,
    When trust is gone and hope is lost,
    What are we fighting for and who really pays the cost.
    When you tell us you're sorry but you do it again,
    Why do we believe you, why do we keep giving in.
    When we finally realize we made a mistake,
    It's too late, we've sealed our fate.
     
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    We are the sum of experiences that we encounter as we go through life. Day to day struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures. As human beings, when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to choose how to react. Every decision that we make leads us down a different road. We will never come to exactly the same crossroads. Every decision that we make has significance. The tiniest choice that we make reverberates throughout the entire universe.
     
  9. IlGum

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    Imagine

    Softly I whisper into the night,
    To someone waiting far from my sight.
    Do you hear my voice, do you hear my song?
    Lonely face far across space!

    Whispering voices move fast with the tide,
    Like arms stretched out wide searching for light.
    Catch my words then search for my song,
    Drifting on time to reach you online.

    Hear my voice when the silence of the night,
    Echoes the memories hiding from sight.
    The soft whisper of longing rhymes with time,
    Wishing to find a friend to be mine.

    Come to me on the waves of the wind,
    Let your feet dance with a pulsing beat.
    Close your eyes gently and wonder with me,
    What this moment can offer for free.

    Soft words rising slow from the night.
    Searching for someone waiting in sight.
    Far in the distance a smile widened slow,
    When someone received my song with the flow.
     
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    Four Months
    Everything about them is perfect and a collage is the perfect way to display all that wonderfulness. Don’t worry about pictures being centered and exact. Zoom in on different areas of your baby to get the best effect. (Photo by: IlGum)
     
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    The BLT Club Sandwich

    When I was a kid it was more of a BL sandwich, as I didn’t care so much for tomatoes. Now I load it up with whatever fresh veggies I can lay my hands on, the thicker the sandwich the better!

    For this sammie I like to use some kind of bakery bread or sourdough. Oh and sure you could toast it like those do at delis and diners, but why not griddle it? Griddling the bread gives it that golden, crispy edge, yet it won’t tear up the inside of your
    mouth and leave your gums raw! I totally hate that!

    So whether it’s lunch or dinner this this sandwich isn’t complete without a crisp, juicy dill pickle and some salty potato chips and
    washed down with an iced cold lemonade. This is my kind of meal.

    Quick… Easy… Classic.
     
  12. IlGum

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    The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.
     
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    Salted Caramel Chocolate Peanut Butter Pie

    This pie is heaven. I started my shift eating this and thanks to my colleague who made it.
     
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    I thought it was a dream, I thought it wasn't real
    But pain really hurts and it's really how I feel
    Memories keep coming back, and so do all of the tears
    I hear your voice, and as quick as the smile came, it quickly disappears
    I don't know what is happening, because you always held my hand

    You said you would never let go, that is what I don't understand
    So many promises you made, and more of them broken
    Lost and confused, feels like I'm choking
    A lot of things I did not say
    Now I can't find my way

    I feel like a boomerang, you throw me but not only that
    Every time you throw me, I always seem to come back
    Back to you, back to pain
    Nothing has changed, you're still the same

    I cannot start over because I don't know where to start
    I guess that is what happens when someone breaks your heart
    If we are supposed to follow our dreams, why can't I follow you
    Because now I am so lost, I wish you were lost without me too
     
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    Tattoo artist Kaori Heavens. Photo by IlGum
     
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    CORNED BEEF HASH RECIPE WITH SUNNY-SIDE UP EGG
    The spices/seasonings in this hash are fairly standard – thyme, garlic powder, onion powder, paprika, salt and cayenne. I love the flavor that thyme imparts on any dish, especially potatoes. Very earthy and aromatic but still subtle. The rest of the ingredients are part of my basic seasoning mixture. Feel free to adjust these to suit your taste. I take the time to measure out all these things so I can make a recipe for you to use, but if you want to do a dash of this and a pinch of that, fine by me. Cook in a way that makes you happy.
     
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    I am gone.
    I'm so far gone you wouldn't even know
    So far gone I won't even show.
    I'm so far gone and there's no way out
    so far gone I just want to shout.
    I'm so far gone you could never hear me scream
    So far gone you wouldn't hear a thing.
    I'm too far gone I try and let you see.
    So far gone you wouldn't notice me.
    I'm so far gone drowning in quick sand.
    So far gone there is no helping hand.
    I'm too far gone you can't help me.
    So far gone I tried, begged on one knee.
    I wish you could understand how much pain one could withstand.

    I try to be brave yet I have drowned,
    I'm in so deep to deep for you to notice,
    to deep for you to care I'm gone now nothings left.
    I should only hope you learn,
    it was never your fault.
    The depression cut me
    to deep for you see to deep for you too feel.
    The Pain is bigger then me,
    I tried to fight.
    I'm just gone now.
    I'm sorry
     
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    Each day I live, the pain consumes
    What little sanity I have bloomed
    Like walking in a cloud of fog
    Falling down, sinking into smog

    Life just seems grim
    I think on a whim
    Interest lost in everything I do
    But what a life, who really knew?

    Depressed to a fault, that all I see
    Death just seems like the only way for me
    A waste of time, I feel I am
    But that's its nature, a full mind jam

    I try and try to ease the pain
    A fallen effort with no gain
    Thoughts begin to eat away
    Makes me want to end it today

    Uncomfortable around others for the way I feel
    I pray and wish this all wasn't real
    Life just seems more like a prison
    Caged, alone, an abomination risen

    No one could ever understand
    Why I would want my death sooner than planned
    Its not something I want for me
    But to end my suffering this is what has to be

    So I write this all as I fall from grace
    Down to this place, some barren waste
    I know not how much longer I will last
    But all I can do, is pray that this will just pass.
     
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    Arroz Caldo literally means warm rice. This Arroz Caldo recipe is a type of congee that closely resembles risotto. It has been a favorite Filipino snack and is best eaten with tokwat baboy.

    Although Arroz Caldo is of Chinese origin, the name was actually given by the Spaniards because of pronunciation issues. You might be familiar with lugaw and goto. These congee closely resembles each other, correct? The distinguishing ingredient of Arroz Caldo is the use of chicken, while goto usually requires the use of tripe, beef, and innards. Lugaw, on the other hand, is as plain as it can get.
     
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    I watch you walk away from me
    And the tears start to fall
    I ask myself a million times
    How did we lose it all???
    For the first time I had no words
    that to you I could say
    I cling to old memories
    And I watch you walk away
    I just don't want to let you go
    But inside I know I must
    My heart's whimpering with pain
    But it's my mind I trust
    There's confusion around me
    There's numbness in my heart
    But looking at you walk away
    My world just fell apart
    If only I could handle it
    And bear to just say
    I'd use my breath and say the words

    Don't Walk Away!!!
     

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