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  1. IlGum

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    She blew into my life like a sweet summer breeze,
    Stole my heart in an instant, made me weak in the knees...

    She seemed so sincere when she'd look in my eyes
    And say the things I've waited to hear my whole life.

    I thought she was different... I thought she was real.
    I never thought I could feel the way she made me feel.

    I just don't understand why she wasted the time
    When there was nothing to gain on her end or mine.

    It was perfectly senseless...not one reason why.
    She would just disappear without saying goodbye.

    She had me floating on air, then let me crash to the ground.
    It's too much to wrap my mind around.

    Why play at being real? No one wins in the end.
    Someone always gets hurt when the other pretends.

    Why say all those things when you don't mean a word?
    It's mean and it's cruel...it's completely absurd.

    Now I'm left here to wonder what could've gone wrong,
    Why she just stopped calling, why she strung me along?

    My thoughts, they consume me, like a crop consumes rain.
    Another sleepless night just might drive me insane.

    I toss and I turn over and over again.
    I can't help but feel like I've lost my best friend.

    But a friend would be honest, wouldn't play with your heart.
    A friend wouldn't lie to you right from the start.

    A friend would still be there come tomorrow...
    A friend would comfort, not cause you sorrow.

    I wonder if....whatever her reasons may be
    That surely she knew her actions would hurt me?

    And I wonder if from time to time
    The thought of me might cross her mind?

    Does she think about my "angel" eyes
    Filled with tears because she lied?

    Does my memory haunt her in her sleep?
    For her it's probably not that deep.

    I truly wish him all the best,
    Hope she's okay and finds happiness...

    Finds everything she's looking for....
    Good health, true love and so much more.

    I miss her, and it breaks my heart,
    That it had to end before it got to start.
     
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    Lechon Kawali (Filipino Crispy Fried Pork Belly)

    My heart will always belong to my one true love of Filipino food—lechon kawali. This boiled and deep-fried pork belly is perhaps the best example of just how well Filipinos know their pork.

    The exterior is salty and extra crispy, while the interior is tender and moist with fat and juicy meat. It's a rich combination that pairs extremely well with the mild tartness of cane vinegar, which cuts
    through the fat just enough to make eating a whole plate of fried pork a dangerously simple task.
     
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    Vigan Longganisa

    The Vigan longaganisa is a small and plump native sausage, good for about two or three bites. It is garlicky and has a yellowish color. Although it is eaten anytime, even as a bread filling, it is traditional favored as breakfast fare together with fried eggs and steamed or fried rice. It is best dipped in Ilocos vinegar with plenty of chili, garlic and onions.
     
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    That very first day that we met
    It's a feeling I'll never forget.
    All the experiences that we've shared,
    I knew right away that you were rare.

    You see, it's hard to find someone like you,
    Usually, they're too good to be true.
    Though I should've entered with more ration,
    With you I felt so much passion.

    I wish those things had never happened.
    It feels as though my love's been abandoned.
    All I wanted was to make you happy,
    So why is it that I have to feel so crappy?

    I want nothing more than for us to move on,
    But it's so hard now that the trust is gone.
    I want to get past this, I really do...
    What can I do to make you be true?

    My love for you is like an undying flame.
    And I once wished for our love to remain.
    Do you remember that day, the day that it snowed?
    It's the day that I wished for our love to grow.

    You hurt me that night, you need to know that you did.
    And I need you to know that I can forgive.
    But I'm really struggling with trying to forget,
    Because I still feel the same as that first day we met.
     
  5. IlGum

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    What does forever mean to you?
    When you couldn't even keep it true
    You said you'd forever be there
    But were those just words pulled from thin air?
    Did you actually love me?
    Did you really see the feelings I see?
    The truth, the love, the loyal tears
    The betrayal, hate, and the fear
    I thought you felt the same
    That you would cover me in the rain
    I thought forever and always was forever
    But now there's not an us...never
    You said you'd always be there for me
    But now I truly see
    That you never saw the feelings in my soul
    Now you've pierced my heart and made a hole
    But my heart has healed
    Now I have friends that are real
    And you're gone out of my life
    Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
    I thought forever was forever, not just a word
    But I guess that's not what I heard.
     
  6. IlGum

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    Regretting the moments I took for granted,
    Moments when I was eaten by pride and hatred.
    What if I had told you what I feel?
    Would it change my life's wheel?

    I was so afraid to fall in love deeply,
    For mending a broken heart will never be easy.
    I have been rotting in that hell before,
    And I don't want to be there anymore.

    But why is my heart crying in pain?
    Why do I feel that my life's turning so plain?
    Should I have told you that I love you?
    Should I have showed you that it's true?

    They say some words are better left unsaid,
    Emotions should be kept till they fade.
    No, scratch all the cowardice and negativity,
    Because saying what you feel is the real bravery.

    So what if you won't love me back?
    At least there will be no what if's in my mind.
    But it's too late for me to realize this fact,
    'Cause now you're gone and you'll never be mine.
     
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    You pass me on the street and out eyes briefly meet.
    You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
    I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
    In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile, you have no idea that my heart is in denial.
    You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
    You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.
    My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
    The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.
    Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
    Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact.
    You don't want to love nor do you want to have fun.
    Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on.
    You smile so that's what people see on your face, they think that you are happy but deep down inside you feel like a worthless disgrace.
    Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning,
    But you question yourself and wonder if you act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings.
    When you wake up from a night's sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart will be back to it's old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
    You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback.
    You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars.
    You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted.
    You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire.
    You're tired of running and losing your breath.
    You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.
    You want to feel that every day can be better than the last.
    You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past.
     
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    Nutella Hot Chocolate

    For hot chocolate with a taste of hazelnet, use Nutella instead of cocoa. I love hot chocolate and I could always use a cup of hot chocolate early in the morning when it feels a little chilly or late at night when I need a boost in energy or warmth before I sleep. I have always made hot chocolate the traditional way, until a few months ago when I chanced upon a Nutella Hot Chocolate recipe, and it was like “duh, why haven’t I thought of that?”

    Anyone can make this simple Nutella hot chocolate and it takes no more than 5 minutes for a steamy, nutty, and absolutely drinkable Nutella hot chocolate. If you like, you can also pipe in some whipped cream before serving, or add a splash or two of cocoa powder or cinnamon powder to your liking. It can be as interesting as you want it to be.
     
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    At first glance when we met, I didn't know what to expect
    But the pieces to my heart are now beginning to connect
    You must've been sent from up above because I've been in a state of bliss.
    Ever since we embraced and indulged in each other's lips
    I took a chance on you and you brought me to my knees.
    Your beauty is like a sunlit sky radiating the blue seas
    Lost in the color of your love that will remain deep
    Inside of my heart is where you will always be.
    Perfection may be impossible but you're as close as it gets to its reflection
    A quintessential masterpiece and I'm the frame for your protection
    Our bond is like a fine wine, it only gets better with age
    The very thought of you makes my words dance across this page
    My prose turn into pictures when I cast you as my star
    For you've outshined every spotlight on every stage thus far
    They say patience is a virtue exhibited by those who have waited
    That appears to be our case, it feels so good to have finally made it.

    I know to explain it, but being with you is like magic
    But this is no illusion, it's far better than I imagined
    So here we are, side by side as we begin a new chapter
    Of everlasting memories and pages filled with laughter
    Surpassing one in a million, you are my once in a lifetime
    I would have given this to you sooner, I was just waiting for the right time.
     
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  10. NUT2Fast

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    wow i wonder how i missed this thread, Let me use some of this stuff for my mixtape i wont give u credit tho.
     
  11. IlGum

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    Zup! Sure bro! No prob by that. Are you a artist? Like rap or somethin'? I do mixtape too and producin' some beats / instrumentals. :)
     
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    Sometimes we see things that aren't meant to be seen.
    Sometimes things aren't always as they seem.
    Sometimes we need someone to call our own,
    Especially when we're alone.
    Sometimes people just can't understand,
    Why things get out of hand.
    Sometimes life just isn't fair,
    Especially when people just don't care.
    And sometimes it's hard to say,
    Why things have to be this way.
    Sometimes it's all you can do to get by,
    Especially when dreams continue to die.
    Sometimes it's nice to sit in the rain.
    Even to just relieve the pain.
    And when we've had a really bad day,
    Sometimes we just need to get away.
    We never know what's wrong with out pain.
    Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

    And sometimes when people get hurt,
    Even the strongest ones may need comfort.
     
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    MISA CAMPO FOR ILLEST IN MANILA
    Misa entertained fans through selfies and signing memorabilia.

    Photo by: IlGum
     
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    Sick memoirs bruh nice;)
     
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    u got any of ur beat up on youtube :O and no rapping phase was just a high school phase back in the day but still fun to do
     
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    Garlic Shrimp Tortellini

    What is better than regular pasta? A pasta stuffed with cheese!! Yes, I am talking about tortellini, the “dumpling” shaped pasta filled with cheese, which are always such an eye candy to look at, plus absolutely delightful to the palate.

    You know me, I will cook everything with shrimp if I can, and with tortellini, it’s a no brainer. Some olive oil, garlic, shrimp, dashes of white wine, salt and pepper are all you need. To jazz up the taste and presentation, I added sun-dried tomato, which is my absolute favorite thing to eat, and you have a “refined” and utterly scrumptious pasta dish that rivals the taste of your favorite Italian restaurants. Don’t believe me? Try this garlic shrimp tortellini recipe and judge yourself.
     
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    I'm walking the sidewalk,
    in the middle of town.
    My head is quite heavy,
    it's pointing straight down.

    I do not wish,
    to look straight ahead.
    My body and mind,
    just feels beyond dead.

    An intersection,
    I finally reach,
    Where I'm welcomed,
    with a horrible screech.

    Right or left,
    I'm asked to choose.
    But I continue along the sidewalk,
    change I refuse.

    My sidewalk is covered,
    with sorrow an dirt.
    I'm loyal to this street,
    it's simply called hurt.

    As I continue,
    my pain sadly grows.
    The shoes I'm wearing,
    are called blue woes.

    There seems like there's no end,
    or slight hope in sight.
    This lonely town,
    forever has night.

    It's just so difficult,
    for me to leave.
    As I raise my head,
    I cannot believe.

    A rusty sign,
    with the name of the town.
    It reads, "Sad",
    and it's pointing straight down.
     
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    Like a flower,
    with gentle care I planted,
    But with time,
    I did take this love for granted.

    Our bond dissolved,
    became like sand.
    The wind no longer,
    it could withstand.

    Infinite sadness,
    my brittle heart feels,
    My foolishness,
    each morning reveals.

    Our love was like,
    a beautiful wave,
    I'd do anything to
    hold and save.

    But was it meant to,
    reach its end,
    Engulfed by the shore,
    I could not defend.

    If our love was like,
    the sun,
    then the darkness of night,
    has clearly won.

    I do not wish to be,
    sadnesses slave,
    When the sun rises,
    I'll seek a new wave.
     
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    The day seems good until you wake up.
    The world seems welcoming until you enter it.
    When the morning comes nothing seems good
    the moment my eyes open and until they are shut
    I feel like death would be better, safer, and more peaceful.
    But the moment my eyes are closed dreams come and take me.
    The dream of peace and happiness, the warmth and love.
    It may only last a moment but it gives me strength
    Strength for the day to come
    No matter what it be, a nightmare or a fantasy
    It seems better then life.
    Friends in my dreams never leave or change
    Time never passes to fast or to slow
    You are never forgotten or hated
    Nothing seems better and you start to feel happy.
    Then the sun comes up and your brought back,
    back to the truth of the world.
    The pain and sadness,
    The hate and fear of life washes over you
    and you wish you wouldn't have open your eyes.
    You want to fall back into your welcoming sleep
    Where nothing goes wrong and you are always loved.
     
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  20. Groot

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    wow gum this is like your online journal or something huh?
    let me share one of my pages too

    Chaos of Humanity
    We want to see greener pastures,
    Halves more than halves for ourselves
    We discard trivial thoughts for greater ideologies
    and complicate simplicity by giving up faith.

    We seek knowledge but in turn it takes
    more than what we have.
    We thought we can control our lives through logic,
    but the margin of error is taller than the paramount
    of our visions.

    We try to take back what we disposed of,
    and realize it is what we truly miss.
    Cries of pride never deceived reality:
    Greatly, we pay the price of reasoning.

    Our goals are bound by the human utopia
    and we fail to testify our purpose.
    We scream to inform but we never whisper
    to let people understand.

    We kill, sacrifice and we give in rabidly for
    our thirst of knowledge.
    We perpetually struggle to keep balance,
    but it is in that struggle that keeps nature lopsided.
    We say we are the most intelligent of all.

    We prove what we announce.
    We disclaim our errors.
    Lastly, we eat our words
     

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